It's because of you

I see your name
I hesitate to answer
I feel the pain
I thought I had
moved past it
Yet here I am
again agonizing
trying in vain
to pretend
that I'm not overly
curious about you

It's because of you
that I write heartbreak love songs
It because of you
that I think twice before letting go
It's because of you
that I can't give myself
the chance to fine something new...
Because of you

I hate these days
of going crazy
Just because someone
said you're doing fine.....
by the way
It's so hard to makebelieve
you don't exist
when it obvious
you're so real to me

It's because of you
that I write heartbreak love song
sIt because of you
that I think twice before letting go
It's because of you
that I can't give myself
the chance to find something new...
Because of you

A mantra to get me through the day...

Never let them see you cry
Never let them see you cry
Never let them see your pain
Never let them know the caused it
Never let them open your heart
Never let them see you cry
Never let them see you cry
Never let them touch your soul
Never let them see they won
Never let them know they won
Never let them see you cry
Never let them read your mind
Never let them see you crumble
Never let them know you love them
Never let them see you cry

This is what you do to me.

Another conversation.
Another one night stand.

Another drink.
Another tear-filled week.

Another pretty word.
Another false hope.

Another moment of you.
Another breath wasted.

Another week of wishes.
Another time of broken dreams.

Another frustration.
Another conversation.

Ah, what it is to love a heartless woman...

Ah,
what it is to love a heartless woman
to always bear the pain
to hurt
To give
without getting
to wait for hours on end
until you go insane
to love
without living
to feel the sickness
of standing in the rain
To hope to say you'll always love her
to hope
she feels the same
To wishing
you knew what to expect
to never expecting what it is you get.
To work hours on end
To try and stake a claim
To hope that she would be your friend
yet always bear the pain
Ah,
what it is to love a heartless woman

And it kills me that I need you more

Now I know
you'll never lose me.
You need my inspiration
to feel free.
You need me close
to feel miles away.
I'll never be
your Fairweather friend.
You will always need me
to feel the satisfaction
of self worth.
You will always need me
to fill the empty void
others leave behind.
You need me to gratify
that you aren't alone.
I am the drug
That helps you fly.
You need me....

Crooked smile, blackhole

Crooked smile blackhole
Raven hair, pale skin
Just shoot them that look
everyone lets you in
Crooked smile blackhole
stealing the spotlight
Taking up space
Breaking girls hearts
with that pretty face
Crooked smile blackhole
I bet you don't care
that you break my heart
with your icy stare
Crooked smile blackhole
at it again
Going around, all over town
spreading your sin
Crooked smile blackhole
Have you got no soul?
You'll destroy us all
as you take control
Crooked smile blackhole
coming around
you contaminate the air
and never touch the ground
Crooked smile blackhole
how do you see
when choke me up
and make other bleed?
Crooked smile blackhole
with your heart of stone
why do you always come back?
Why won't you leave me alone?
Crooked smile blackhole
what will you do when everyone is gone
and no one is left to play games with you?

Your role, your fantasy

Move on
with the show
Keep them laughing as you go

Don't let the mask fall
Can't show the tears
til the curtain call

With every role that you play
You can feel your sanity decay
Just give in, don't you fight
And you'll make it through another night

Everyday
The feelings still the same
Even after your name has changed

Life is never as light as the farce you wish it could be
You can try to hold on to your fantasies
But you'll just get crushed by reality
With every autograph you may sign
you feel you gave awaya piece of your life.

One day
The medication will help you to relate
to your reality
but until then
Just keep sinking into your fantasy...